Laying it down!

So Jordan had a rough morning but by night he seemed to be doing a little was better. It was really good to be able to see him eating and playing uno. Wow we had alot of visitors come up day, Jordan was really glad about that. His sisters was here! His cousin Brandon came up and they had a good time.

Dr Kendall was planning on discharging Jordan tomorrow morning. The home health company dont want him to come home with a regular iv and Dr Kendall doesnt want to put a central line in because he dont feel its nessecary. So he will be here till Monday.

Dr Carr is supposed to call him come Monday morning and hopefully we will be on our way down, there has been so many people say that today we will be discharged that we are not going to get our hopes up but still think positive!

Ferlin isnt up here like he was with Jordan the way he was last time he was in here, last time fer stayed everynight with him. Watching Jordan cry for him is really starting to get to me. Its really hard to watch Fer go through whatever he is going through when I feel like he should be here and not worry about anything else until all this with jordan is over. I think I have very strongly in not so good ways all the time told him how I feel.

I talked to someone today and he said God had given him a vision on things that were going on in my life. I have had that on my mind all day and I just feel like God is working with our family right now on many levels and if the end outcome isnt what I thought it would be, it is what God knows it will be.

Im laying here now looking at him and I feel so awful that everyone isnt focus mainly on him. I hate that I just dont understand, and their isnt anything I can do to fix it. After yesterday and the miracle with the IV Im trying do my part by praying and laying it down. Never knew giving up things could e harder on a person!